Last week was the start of my 6^th semester, one of my classes is Addictions; this weekend part of our homework was to write about our choice of various videos that focused on the concept of Addiction.  One of them was by Dr Gabor Maté, his video discussed compassion; for some reason that had me on a journey down Alice’s rabbit hole.  It brought me to concepts that are steeped in trust and what that actually means. What are the extreme levels of compassion in relation to those struggling with addiction and trust? I don’t think that there is anything more extreme than being able to house high levels of compassion within a circle of trust with the individuals in one’s lives. We all at times ensconce characteristics with a narrative that may at times feel that we are falling through the finger cracks of the safety net hands which hold us. Where doubt slowly starts to seep into a story that has no business with a centre stage role.  It is frightening how the moment a thought begins to slowly slip, how the universe will give us a sign to allow us to feel stabilized a true return to homeostasis. To be steadied by those who will always have our back, against temptation within the presence of those who never really gave one care and only wanted to pillage the biproduct of who we are. I know this is very heavy for a Sunday night, nevertheless, it is as good a time as any, to truly open our consciousness to individuals who are worthy of our trust.  I think that is what I want to express more than anything within this piece, there is a reason why we leave those we may have once loved in our past. They not only, no longer hold the key to our future, but they also don’t understand the value in what was once offered freely.  Perhaps a slight dose of diminished addiction, something that is non pharmaceutical although quite important. Toxic relationships leave us as distilled bits of goo at the bottom of a barrel, all of the mirth that once existed is made to be obsolete. Compassion for ourselves offers such a sense of value, and worth.